have i finally become my own man?
someone i know from hollywood called yesterday…
a music person.. he’s done some interesting things…
i take him out for dinner whenever i’m in los angeles.. but he never emails the next day to say thanks or anything…
years pass without any contact…
but yesterday he called from somewhere in england…
here’s how it goes….
“HEY MAN, IT’S GREAT TO HEAR YOU…
WHEN CAN WE HOOK UP?… BRO THIS…BRO THAT…
SO YOU GUYS *WON’T* MIND IF I CRASH ON YOUR FLOOR FOR THREE DAYS WHILE I’M UP IN LONDON?”!@£$%^&*
i just told him i had work to do,and couldn’t have the week hi-jacked.[true]
there was a time i would have been a total lapdog along with my own stupid selfish hidden music agenda…
… keeping a hand in the game and all of that…
but now i can’t be bovvered….
what’s the point?
if there’s no genuine wind in the sails,what’s the bloody point?
so i came off the telephone feeling terribly grown up for not having been bullshitted into being a free hotel,but at the same time i felt kind of sad,worried that i’m not letting the river of generosity flow in my old age.
musicians are a weird bunch…
pop stars even worse…
hustlers..
in many ways they have to be..
but there comes a point where you’ve got to give more than a dull hustle.
if you don’t.. you’ll just spend the rest of your life shooting yourself in the foot.
best thing is to do the strongest work you can in any given situation.. be fair.. and let the rest take care of itself.
mary cigarettes 
good for you. i think what you have to remember is that this type of person always has a fallback plan anyway. he probably didn’t think twice about it. so it’s all cool.
it’s good to be a grown up. as long as it’s only occasionally. 🙂
T-bend. x
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The river of generosity?
When someone seeks to use you or take advantage of you, they don’t leave you any room to extend generosity towards them. Generosity is not in the gift of the exploited. Good riddance to him, I’d say.
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that’s so true.. a situation like that doesn’t inspire generosity..i wanna give love but on my own volition, and not out of obligation….
it’s a shame,cause there’s much to like about this person,but he’s not putting good soil under and around the flower bulbs…he just put me on the spot ,and it turned me off a bit…a real bugger of a thing.
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Generosity enriches the giver but being mugged is debilitating in so many ways….Feel it as standing up to someone who is trying to take something from you against your will.
Paul fendermac
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that’s pretty much it for sure paul…it’s such a drag having to stand ones ground though..it’s not the grooviest place to be.
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